I can only speak from life situations that I am experiencing, learning how to put more effort in, more than I ever thought was conceivable, and so far, as long as I have been willing and choosing to do so, the universe has never let me down.

I am constantly pushing out of my comfort zones, and it seems the more practice I get, and the best I give at it, that constantly I am getting stronger and finding more harmony and balance with the increased levels this journey keeps requiring. let me rephrase that, demanding.

I’m keeping an open mind, a willing and loyal heart, and an appreciation for letting go of control, fear, anxiety, overwhelmingness, and challenging as hell life’s obstacles. It feels great to find myself in the midst of something so dynamic, so fragile, so fundamental, and so wild, and yet not have any real clue as to how it is all going to play out.

I have no attachments to what the future brings, I have no pain, no worries, no emotional baggage, and I have chosen this, and I follow through again and again and again.

It’s life. It’s here for those of us who want to put our best in, who are willing to rise to the demands and efforts it requires to maintain it!

All I can say from experience, writing to you currently in this place of extreme outrageous adventure, that time is so precious, and the last thing I am going to do is waste it on complaining, whining, having pitty parties, or emotional battles. Instead I am going to use every last second of effort and energy that I have, and I am going to put give it all my complete and 100%. no holding back, no waiting for options that I have no clue are going to be there or not, I am going to continue living in the moment, giving my best, and giving you all that I have and am. I believe in this journey and this ability to choose the life that you want, and I am sharing this with you now, so that perhaps if you shall find yourself in a somewhat same situation of energies, and unknowns, and obstacles, because I want to connect with those that are willing to give this life and journey every last single of effort you have too! I want to celebrate these victories with you! I seek like minded thriving individuals who are putting themselves out there and rising to the ocassion each and every single time!

I have a playground to share with you, I have a place I want to share victories with you, I have a playground where we can all frolic and life each and every single one of our lives to the maximum we can put in it!

I need you to walk the walk that you are talking……….

I need you to keep it real…….

I need you to keep it alive………..

g

I had a thought…….

where do you see yourself in 2020?

where will you be living?

what will you be using for means of transportation?

what kind of clothing will you wish to wear?

how will you acquire your food?

what kind of relationship will you be in?

what kind of music will you be listening too?

where will you wish to visit for vacation?

what do you want to be doing to earn a living?

if you could design your own sexual pleasure tool, device, accessory, what would it be? remember you have quite a few years to evolve into this

how will you choose to communicate with others?

who would you like to be sitting down and having a dinner party with?

……I’m going to work on mine, but in the meantime, thought I would post these questions for anybody who wishes to participate. be creative, live your fantasy, make it the best possible future, with unlimited possibilities. go ahead, allow yourself to play a little, if you should desire.

i’ll check back in with mine soooooon

kisses
@gcrush

to the pursuit!

@gcrush

when you think in life what brings you pleasure, and I’m talking of the sensory kind, the pleasure of the feel, the touch, the desire, not the pleasure of a project well done, or party well executed…..I’m talking about pleasure…..our sexuality

why is it that we suppress our sexuality, or are thought of as taboo because some of us wish not too, that some of us wish to spend a life seeking out the best connections and sexual explorations possible. sexuality is such a magical exchange of beautiful and pleasurable energy.

when I am spending time engaged in a sexual exchange, I want the best time and experience spent ever! wherever my sexual pallet may take me! how about you?

@gcrush

*couch talk*

my mind is so peaceful yet so full of inspiration and vision. I started to have these moments on a regular basis when shone and I got together. It’s a beautiful journey, I’m so grateful for every single thought and exploration. I have learned more about myself over the past years than I have learned all of my life. and as some as you know I am turning 34 this month, so I have had plenty of time on this earth so far to spend time with myself. or have I?

the other night while I was bartending, I took notice of my present moment. something I realized that I have not been doing at the bar. Usually I am running around trying to tend to everyone’s needs, anticipating what they need before they need it, because I always love to make sure everybody is having a great time. Though my actions always made it impossible for me to spend time and connect. And at times I realized that I had been allowing the bar to wear me down. I was losing a lot of energy on the bar, and coming home exhausted. Needing more time to recover, and then of course allowing my best friends mary and tuaca to play a whole lot more than I really want them too.

So tuesday night while I was taking note of my present moment, I stopped to see what was going on around me. This is what I saw.

I saw the man I love, the man who fills my heart and vibrations with so much magic standing behind the bar pouring a drink for one of our customers. I saw @nopantsdance flirting and giggling and flashing her boobies behind the bar… ( I am training her after all to be a bartender, and I am here to train her to be the best she can be! ) I saw my work “husband” chris taking dishes back to be washed (because I refuse to use the chemicals that are needed when washing them by hands, yes Nate knows this, because it makes my hands dry and crackly, and this girl is in pictures, and that is just not acceptable, but most importantly I love myself too much than too allow the chemicals to be on my body!)

I saw a room full of amazing artists, @metaphysical1 and @auditorycanvas playing on their new tools, entertaining the crowd, I saw a room full of big smiles and lots of hugs. I had new customers on our nights asking what was this place? ha ha, they couldn’t believe the great energy and fun that was happening on a tuesday night! (yes they will return)

I just stood there, standing still, and just looking around. It was such an amazing and beautiful scene. Everybody working together and sharing great times. Why not, Tuesday night is just as good as any other night. Live in the present!

So then it dawned on me, it hit me so hard I almost started crying. Tears of joy of course. I realized again how much I loved shone. How much I loved that he is always right beside me, no matter where I am at. He’s now bartending and learning the bar so that on my shifts he can come back and help out. Which gives me more time to slow down, and spend quality time with so many of the people that come in to visit. It saves some of my energy so that I don’t need so much recovery time from running all night. He allows me more time to be me. To slow down, breathe, and have a lot of fun. To really take in the surroundings, and truly appreciate every second I am spending at the bar.

Then it really HIT me!!! I’m not sure if anybody was watching, but my knees almost buckled. Buckled from the realization:

Meeting shone and sharing time and love with this man, has given me an opportunity to be myself. To get to know myself, to know what I like, what makes me feel good, what provides for my creative blissful self. Shone’s love and our relationship has given me wings. I’ve had the opportunity to pull away from all of the things that were not making me happy, all of the patterns that were causing malfunctions in my living. Not that I was completely malfunctioned, ( I honestly thought that I was so independent, and that I could do anything alone, because I could always work so hard and never quit on anything, the bigger the challenge, the more I gave! FAIL ) More importantly his love just brought out the love that I feel for myself and for life! It was the missing element, the missing puzzle piece.

I enjoy each and every day that we share. Waking up each day is the best ever! Always ready for whatever magic the universe and our love brings!

and now, every tuesday and wednesday, I have an even bigger smile, and more energy walking in and preparing for the greatest nights ever! It’s a much better energy for me to share with my friends: all of the amazing people that share their love and time on tues and wed nights rocking away at the amendment21. I am forever grateful!

kisses
@gcrush

I think it’s so important for every person to know who they are, to be loved, to love, and to be surrounded by a community of love!

would you consider yourself a creative person (and by all means creativity comes in all different avenues, so whatever you do don’t sell yourself short!!!) ? what level of creativity would you rank yourself on a scale of 1-10? how important is your creative life to you, the part of your human condition where you get to free flow a bit, and follow your inspirations?

would you consider yourself a sexual person? meaning how often a day do you visualize, think, wonder, search, explore, communicate, are curious, or have sex? and please be honest with yourselves. you are not going to be struck down by lightning, and you are not going to get grounded by your parents!

and now, if you are not thinking of it enough everyday, then how are you going to change that?

my point is this:

we are human. we have to eat, we have to sleep, we have to eliminate. are we all still agreeing at this point? we all have hormonal bodily influences that naturally cause us to feel stimulated, aroused, or in heat. some of us use this call of the wild to procreate, (have children) others use this call of the wild to satisfy their carnal urges.

we are human: we love to create, build nests, places where we feel “comfortable”,( watch out if you are talking to a cancer, we will go on and on how important our nest is to us!) places that inspire us to live, to be creative, to entertain.

okay, so now that we are all sexual and creative creatures, are we all creatively having sex?

Now that we are being 100% honest with each other, I want us to think how often we are adding creativity to our sex lives. Why? because as a human, we cannot actually think that having sex in the same position, in the same room, at the same time, with the same person for a lifetime is going to actually satisfy our sexual appetite? Why, because we are humans, and can’t we agree that this situation is not being human?

yes I said the same person. I know you have all heard me say how much I love shone, and that I think he is the greatest human to ever walk this planet. Everyday with him is the best ever! I have never known a love so great so magical, and so radiating! The greatest sexual experience ever!! yet I can still say that my sexuality would be stifled if he were the only human I were to have sex with for the rest of my life. I’m very curious, I love to experience amazing levels of energy and exchange with people. Sex is one of them.

I will say, that when it comes to that point, where we have found another, or others to creatively mix into our bedroom, that the energy, the magic, and the creativity they share will be at the same care and love and place where I am at with shone.

We are calling out the best sexual experiences possible, opportunities to explore our curiosities and creativities that fully satisfy our sexual appetites.

I think that love is a magical energy, and I think there are ways to experience this love on so many different levels. Make your experiences the best ever in life. It is up to you!

all is full of love

georgette

1. I read about reaction decision making and the weaknesses it contributes to in Seth Godin’s Tribes:

2. While in a conversation with Shone, he mentioned that decisions are not best based on reactions, because to react is not living as highest self ( because it takes away from the constant state of being = blissful living) a moment of thought and time and intention needs to be set, in order to receive the information, process it, and then navigate. This way the decision is not based on an emotional level. (emotional that can be highs and lows and not necessarily stable info)

3. As I am watching the series finale of Lost, I notice that the characters on the island, keep running around, emotionally reacting to everything, trying to fix everything and everybody, vs just living, and then of course the theme was brought up in the show! WOW

**I wish to no longer try to live in the past paced, emotional reacting, state of life, I want peace and calm and love for every single second I breath. This is my mantra, I repeat it OFTEN!!

this evening shone and I shared another conversation about life, our future, and what and how we wish to navigate this journey. talking about love, and explorations, our adventures, and what parts of life we really wish to be experiencing, and putting our love, focus, and intention there. these moments of this path are so enjoyable and enrich my heart and soul with so much vibrations. sometimes I feel like it is putting gas in the tank. I have many more miles to drive, and sometimes a fill up is just what this girl needs!

the energy is really building momentum around these parts, and generating higher energies, I almost feel like at times nothing is real, and I am just floating here in life, an observer, cause what I am feeling and understanding is so way beyond what I thought I could have ever imagined.

I feel lighter in life and a better connection developing with all of my interactions and social worlds. Truly genuine connections based on love, inspiration, kindness, and compassion, full of hope and support! Always wanting the best for all!

**sometimes I still let myself get a little wore down and whiny, and then I make poor decisions based on a reaction. I am learning, and I am open to understanding that I need to change some belief patterns, cause if anything in this world makes me feel anything less than amazing, then I know that there is something that I still need to tweak, a perspective, reaction or idea, that is still conflicting with the path that I am calling out. I am humble, and I am planning on spending a lifetime appreciating the beautiful lessons of life.

but then I quickly jump back into the awareness, the awareness that only I have this ability to stay in my bliss, and that whatever I do or don’t do is the only action that is going to affect this. I love to always be humbled by life. I am forever grateful!

care to share your thoughts……you’ve listened to mine, I’d be happy to listen to yours.

kisses
georgette