*couch talk*

my mind is so peaceful yet so full of inspiration and vision. I started to have these moments on a regular basis when shone and I got together. It’s a beautiful journey, I’m so grateful for every single thought and exploration. I have learned more about myself over the past years than I have learned all of my life. and as some as you know I am turning 34 this month, so I have had plenty of time on this earth so far to spend time with myself. or have I?

the other night while I was bartending, I took notice of my present moment. something I realized that I have not been doing at the bar. Usually I am running around trying to tend to everyone’s needs, anticipating what they need before they need it, because I always love to make sure everybody is having a great time. Though my actions always made it impossible for me to spend time and connect. And at times I realized that I had been allowing the bar to wear me down. I was losing a lot of energy on the bar, and coming home exhausted. Needing more time to recover, and then of course allowing my best friends mary and tuaca to play a whole lot more than I really want them too.

So tuesday night while I was taking note of my present moment, I stopped to see what was going on around me. This is what I saw.

I saw the man I love, the man who fills my heart and vibrations with so much magic standing behind the bar pouring a drink for one of our customers. I saw @nopantsdance flirting and giggling and flashing her boobies behind the bar… ( I am training her after all to be a bartender, and I am here to train her to be the best she can be! ) I saw my work “husband” chris taking dishes back to be washed (because I refuse to use the chemicals that are needed when washing them by hands, yes Nate knows this, because it makes my hands dry and crackly, and this girl is in pictures, and that is just not acceptable, but most importantly I love myself too much than too allow the chemicals to be on my body!)

I saw a room full of amazing artists, @metaphysical1 and @auditorycanvas playing on their new tools, entertaining the crowd, I saw a room full of big smiles and lots of hugs. I had new customers on our nights asking what was this place? ha ha, they couldn’t believe the great energy and fun that was happening on a tuesday night! (yes they will return)

I just stood there, standing still, and just looking around. It was such an amazing and beautiful scene. Everybody working together and sharing great times. Why not, Tuesday night is just as good as any other night. Live in the present!

So then it dawned on me, it hit me so hard I almost started crying. Tears of joy of course. I realized again how much I loved shone. How much I loved that he is always right beside me, no matter where I am at. He’s now bartending and learning the bar so that on my shifts he can come back and help out. Which gives me more time to slow down, and spend quality time with so many of the people that come in to visit. It saves some of my energy so that I don’t need so much recovery time from running all night. He allows me more time to be me. To slow down, breathe, and have a lot of fun. To really take in the surroundings, and truly appreciate every second I am spending at the bar.

Then it really HIT me!!! I’m not sure if anybody was watching, but my knees almost buckled. Buckled from the realization:

Meeting shone and sharing time and love with this man, has given me an opportunity to be myself. To get to know myself, to know what I like, what makes me feel good, what provides for my creative blissful self. Shone’s love and our relationship has given me wings. I’ve had the opportunity to pull away from all of the things that were not making me happy, all of the patterns that were causing malfunctions in my living. Not that I was completely malfunctioned, ( I honestly thought that I was so independent, and that I could do anything alone, because I could always work so hard and never quit on anything, the bigger the challenge, the more I gave! FAIL ) More importantly his love just brought out the love that I feel for myself and for life! It was the missing element, the missing puzzle piece.

I enjoy each and every day that we share. Waking up each day is the best ever! Always ready for whatever magic the universe and our love brings!

and now, every tuesday and wednesday, I have an even bigger smile, and more energy walking in and preparing for the greatest nights ever! It’s a much better energy for me to share with my friends: all of the amazing people that share their love and time on tues and wed nights rocking away at the amendment21. I am forever grateful!

kisses
@gcrush

I think it’s so important for every person to know who they are, to be loved, to love, and to be surrounded by a community of love!

I started to make my super delicious smoothie this morning:

handful of frozen blueberries
2 oranges
1/2 cup of strawberries
1 cup of kale
1 pink of cilantro
1 cup of coconut water
2 tblspoons of cinnamon
2 tblspoons of flax meal
2 tablspoons of chia seeds
1 tsp of agave nectar

while I was loading it up into the vita mix, all of the amazing and loving raw food community came to mind! Their love was pouring in through their tweets, their blogs, and their communities! They have been a constant reminder to me, have always provided me with love and inspiration, and have always been there, no matter what up or down I was on my raw food journey!

I am truly grateful!

I have always been one to surround myself with the things that inspire me. No matter where I turn, there is always something so beautiful, so grounding , and so uplifting. Today I am full of love! and I wanted to share my love with some of these amazing individuals!

1. @Dhrumil(twitter) here is where my internet connection began.

Up until I started following dhrumil on twitter, I had tried the raw food lifestyle, been moderately successful with it, but was not able to maintain my journey. I need support. I needed reminders. I needed to see others living and breathing, and learn from their habits. Dhrumil was the first connection that really got me hooked! I love following his adventures. He is way too fucking amazing for words! If any of you are on any similar kind of path as mine, I highly recommend you surrounding yourself with his influences. You’ll be thanking yourself someday just like I was this morning!!!

other places you can find dhrumil:

we like it raw
give it to me raw
raw food quickies
dhrumil
spiritual player

I love this man!

2. @PhilipMcCluskey(twitter)

I instantly fell in love with philip. I connected with him I would say a year after he started his raw food journey, right around the time he started his 100 day juice feast. Philip’s story is so highly motivating!!! He lost 200 pounds in 2 years by turning to the raw food lifestyle, after trying every single option out there!! Read his story here. He is on a magical journey, and one that I think you should be exposed to! I know that it has kept hope and determination in my soul.

you can find philip here:

loving raw
adorned oils

3. @RawFoodRightNow: (twitter)

I fell in love with Justin and Heidi. A couple sharing adventures and the raw food lifestyle. They are so amazing. Their love and determination are very catching. They are so real, and share so much of their path with their readers. It’s highly contagious! I followed along on twitter while Justin broke his caffeine addiction! So inspiring, he is supposed to be coming out with an ebook soon to help us all out, (if we should seek it). Heidi is so honest, and so nurtering, her love and desire to share their raw food path is nothing short of amazing!

Their website:

Raw Food Right Now

4. @CafeGratitude(twitter)

One of the reasons I am so excited to move to SF is so that I can visit this magical restaurant more frequently! There is nothing quite like the experiences that I have had at this place. Full of happy and magically wonderful people and food. When you sit down and order, you’ll recognize some amazing affirmations! I was so grateful when they got on twitter! I love having them in my twitterscope, I receive so much on my inspiration from twitter!

Although there are many more amazing influences, I have to say that this was my beginning! These elements have been consistent with my needs for years now! I am so grateful to receive their love and support! I honestly believe that much of my happiness comes from these amazing earthlings! Since them other magical earthlings have sprouted up, but I will save them for another post. I just really wanted to send all my love and appreciation today to these remarkable and absolutely amazing people!

love and gratitude
@gcrush

and so the story begins:

once upon a time shone wanted to start taking pictures. so, he got a camera, and he informed georgette that he was going to start taking pictures of her.

he then proceeded to inform her that he wanted to start taking more and more nude pictures of her. he took her on her first trip to the nude beach at Lake Tahoe. got her completely naked and had whoopy with her! She was hooked. Although there were no cameras present, shone had a master plan. little did she know what she was getting herself into!

ahhhh yes, she learned quickly that regardless of how all natural you wish to live, there is always some kind of preparation that must be accomplished for the lense.

once georgette started to see herself more in pictures, she started to learn more about body awareness, and how to start playing and enjoying being in front of the lense.

soon she realized that she wanted to make some changes. the changes she wanted too see was her health and appearance. instead of starving herself and using fad diets, she started to learn more about the raw food lifestyle. she was always more concerned with her health, and how she felt, verses how thin she needed to appear.

at some point, she felt that she wished to experiment with more hair and makeup styles in front of the camera.

and of course, all of this was even more magical, because she was sharing this journey with the man she loved, the artist of bohocrush.

she really enjoyed the raw lifestyle, it really started to give her more and more body awareness and confidence in front of shones camera.

I am so full of love and appreciation! I am thankful and will always cherish the early years! I learned a lot about myself, and once again, after going down memory lane, am so inspired to learn even more about myself, to explore the lense further, and to really get back to the raw lifestyle! I love bohocrush!

care to go on an adventure with us?

gcrush aka georgette

I’ve been getting high daily for almost 2 years now, and I it was fun, but I like to change it up! I am feeling more energy return. This is exactly what I was after. It went much further than just breaking my daily addiction to coffee. I am Elated for my new freedoms I am regaining.

Dearest friends, no worries, you can smoke and drink all you want. Even around me, it’s not tempting, and I would never wish for anybody to change their ways just because I am. I love you and would miss you dearly if I did not see you around!

all my love

gcrush

Years back when I was a frequent shopper, I always over bought, and over consumed. So much that I still have things in my closet with the price tag on them! Unfortunately most of the things I am no longer interested in, and have been shipping to the good will. Most of the things I do not need, and many just take up space in my side of our not so closet……. closet.

The last few years have really taught me so much about myself, my priorities, and where to focus my attention. Some things I have learned:

1. When living on a limited budget: It’s way more important to me to spend the money on quality food that I eat everyday. I got off track for a bit and started consuming more processed and junk food. YUCK! I have been paying the price and now thankfully slowly and steadily weaning myself back off. By focusing on living everyday, and making sure that I consume enough veggies and fruits, I am getting back on track! Watch out summer, I am working on it! It feels so good to make my money count. Sometimes it’s okay to make do with what you have, even if you have to stretch it out over a few years. The time will come again when things are more providing. I believe!

2. Clothes do not make who I am. Regardless of what I am wearing, or what I am not wearing, I am always me. It’s most important to focus on myself, my health, my skin, and my self love, the accessories I place on my body are just that. Taking the time to really get to know myself, and how I feel, were really important in developing my ideas for future ideas of fashion. ( someday I will create a very limited clothing line, even if it’s just for me to wear)

3. It is important for me to have a plan. This plan ensures limited consumerism. Filling empty or lonely voids with shopping and distractions does not fill the void. In my case, it only took me further and further from myself. Now that I have a plan, I feel so connected to every single item I bring into my life. Everything new item will have a place, and I will know just how to work it into a few different outfits, and love and enjoy every single bit of it!

4. The more clothes I have, the more upkeep and work it takes to maintain them. argh! I am a very simple and easy going girl. More effort and time spent on laundry and folding is way beyond me! ha ha I can easily spend an entire day building this wordpress blog, but laundry! HELL NO!

So now, I have a plan:

1. I want to be mobile. I want to travel. In order to do this, I need less not more. I need items that travel easy, work with a few different things in my collection, and are easy to wash. (no dry cleaning please!!!! the chemicals that dry cleaning creates and the fact that they are on my skin, is not what I consider happy clothes, and happy skin!) If I need a quick wash, and can possibly line dry, then I am in!

R.E.I

I keep telling myself how would this item travel in a backpack?

2. I want to feel and look sexy! I love items that when I wear them make me feel incredibly sexy and desireable. Color and vibrance! Things that flow and work well with my body. I’m a curvy girl, and plan on always remaining so. I love open collar and neck lines. I feel suffocated when there is too much fabric around my neck.

I love this yellow dress from victorias secret

I love dresses and skirts that require no bras or panties. I love to be free. I love looser fitting items that don’t restrict circulation. I like jeans sometimes, but really they are not as important. Most of the time sitting in them causes creases in my skin, and those creases block my skin from free flow and circulation. I am a nut ball about treating my body the best I can.

** Bras? I have the most expensive bra ever! I chose to get a boob job around 6 or 7 years ago. I think everything in life is moderation. No matter what you want, you should go for it. My breasts get lots of boobie massages from myself and shone, and I skin brush them well to help keep them soft and happy. I don’t wear a bra, I don’t like blocking circulation around them. Ask me about things like this if you are interested. I will share more with you on another post. **

3. I need to feel grounded. Clothes that allow my skin to breathe and take in the magical sun rays. Items that I can step right into nature, or right into a big city! I’ll always be the little country girl. No matter where you take me!

4. I love costumes! Costumes that can be shared with the boho crew! Items and accessories that we can all share while wearing on stage, or in a photoshoot! I don’t need them all to myself. Sharing is caring, and fun costume clothes can come and go, jumping into many closets, and always in a good home. These have a travel/storage place all on their own. And with @nopantsdance in the house, we’ll have the most organized costume closet ever!

5. I may not be flowing in cash right now, but when I do, I do not mind paying a nice price for quality items. Once shone found these boots that were $1100.00. I would easily get them, and use them well. I would maybe wear them for a year or so, and then start sharing with the crew. Quality is quality, and the price always reflects that quality. I am okay with this. If something makes you feel so sexy and desirable, then it should get good use out of it!

Okay, so this is the start of a great plan. Now I just need to find the online resources that will be useful for me. Any suggestions? Guys I love to hear from you too. Shone always picks out the most amazing things. I know you guys know what looks good on a woman! Share please!

I heart webcams

last night I could tell that shone was feeling fiesty. he was in the web/cam chat room of a website he has been a member of since it began. (by the way it’s been a great example and has given us great ideas for the new community coming to bohocrush). I love it when he gets in a zone and all he can do is wrap us up in sex!

we took the lap top to bed (another great reason to have a lap top besides blogging) and enlarged the screen to a great viewable size, so that we could lie in bed caressing and touching each other while we watched the other couple do the same. the great thing about the web community is that you can always tell who is watching your web cam. we don’t have the right lights so we couldn’t have ours on, but sure will in the coming future. but it was sure great to sit back and watch others. WIN!!!!

we talked about how we want a nice flat screen tv in our bedroom, that is optimized for web camming viewing. one that was dialed in with a web cam/computer whatever it takes so that we can reciprocate! have I mentioned how much I love the internet!

I love exchanging sexuality over the internet. To me it’s so fun. Not quite like being in the same room together, but hey when you are as active as we are developing and working around the clock to build this playground of ours, you can sure appreciate that you don’t have to travel, or leave the comfort of your own bed to get all worked up and share voyeuristic/exhibitionist adventures.

there is always a way to share fun and sexiness! it’s so invigorating!

after shone put me to bed, he continued watching the web cam. this morning when we woke up, we talked about what we would like to share as a couple on the web cam. I love fore-play, and the thought of shone playing with my pussy, using toys and fingers to drive me to insanity is a great place to start. I personally think adding a web cam audience would be so hot! I love it when others watch! the fact that people from different parts of the world can be tuning in is just too damn awesome!

I think there is always a time in a couples life when sharing and exploring more aspects of their sexuality is healthy and super needed. Sharing it with other sexually active couples and singles is one aspect of that! I’m so happy that shone has shared this magical world with me. It is a world that I honestly am looking forward to creating on bohocrush. We are super patient people, and I know that this year is going to land an amazing and explorative community! Don’t worry I’ll keep you updated.

do you have a webcam? what is your favorite one? do you have tips and tricks you would like to share? I would love to hear them!

have the best saturday ever!
g

     as I look around me, all I can feel is so much gratitude.  no matter where I go, or who I talk with, there is so much exchange of love.  had no idea back not so long ago when shone and I launched bohocrush that we would find ourselves in this situation.  we had our love, and at the time I thought that was the highest notch on the totem pole, but I have learned that when your environment is surrounded by so much love, hugs, and care, that it takes the vibrational level of life right out of this world.

     we all need love.  love melts the hardness away after you have been battling the world for so long.  

     we all need to share love.  love that warms everyone’s soul and gives them the strength and ability to accomplish their goals.

     I hope that in your day you can find, receive, and share love.  It gives me so much energy and ability.  So much hope and belief.  I need love and I am so grateful for the love I have discovered.

I love you!!